cliche

2008 is on its way out, so here is my cliche' blog summing up the 12 months that have just passed...

i started the end of 2007 with a new job and welcomed 2008 in that same place.
we had a some losses, Ray Morales and Lewis Matteson. Both were greatly loved and have been and will be missed almost as much. we had a couple additions as well. Madison and Jones (my new niece and nephew) were introduced to the world late in 2008.

in 2008 we saw and felt change. our country hit economic bottom (or close to it), we lost an inexcusable amount of troops, jobs were lost, and i am not sure that the world will be the same. we have a new president. i, like the majority of voting americans, rejoiced. the media gained a new phrase "post-racial politics" (i think this is an inaccurate statement considering that we are calling something post racial. i think it will only be "post racial" when we don't notice.. which won't happen).

planets were subtracted from our solar system..
ted kennedy died.
the titans actually played a pretty good season
vanderbilt made it to a bowl game (and MIGHT win)
one of my best friends moved away...

i don't have any resolutions. i am not able to resolve anything at this point in time and may not be able to do so for awhile. i will try. i will try to show love more, i will try to learn things that i don't already know, i will try to confirm things that i think may be true, i will try to be a better friends, daughter, employee and wife.

i will try to be better and i hope we all will try to do the same.

rambling

peter has been out of town this week. normally this would mean a lack of sleep. i am usually jumpy. i am a typical girl when it comes to stuff like this. every noise would make me jump and wake upand fight to go back to sleep. fortunately, i slept quite well this week.

i stayed with my mom last night. we went to dinner,did a little shopping and hung out at her house. i have to admit, it was little strange. i've always heard people say, that once they left home, it didn't feel the same. i have never felt that way, until last night. I mean, I was comfortable, nothing really happened. I just felt more like a guest, it wasn't my house anymore. Part of that is because I have my own house. Maybe thats just part of growing up.

I am 24 years old. I should be grown up by now, but I haven't ever felt like I have changed that much since high school. I have always been my mom's baby. I have been treated like it too, but I think at some point we all realize that we can't be that baby anymore.

Maybe that has been my problem. I think I have always thought that things would just magically work out or that there would always be someone there to bail me out. I am more and more starting to realize that I am wrong. There will come a point in time where I will fall on my face and there won't be anyone there to pick me up. I am going to have to do things for myself and I think that time is now. I think financially, mentally, spiritually I have got to start doing things on my own. I need to remember that I am a grown up now and I need to start acting like it. There won't always be people there to help and I can't rely on them even if they can.